I don't want to be a burden to anybody, but life is just too complicated.?

Don't get down. I have a family member who came here for a phd program and dropped out and thought he was going to lose everything too. He eventually figured it out - he is in 3rd year of med school now and will become a citizen in a couple of months. Some firms do hire Ivy League grads and help them get their residency too - I know of a young lawyer who stayed here for a number of years that way (he ended up getting married and decided he wanted to go back). Your internship may be the company that will help. You never know what's around the corner. Life is an adventure. Continue to embrace the unknown; you've already made it this far - Good luck to you.